Do you ever wonder if you are a freak? I said, "wonder" not "worry." Why would I worry if I was a freak? Worrying can not do anything about it.... but wonder... that is another thing all together. What is a freak anyway? Odd, not natural, not normal, strange, more than strange, unstable, unsocial, weird.... different! Yep.... freak.... like a creep. I wish I was "good" that is not in value or worth but in reliable, always ready, able and there. I wonder if it will come back and slam it in my face for being so vulnerable.... for showing the side of myself that so many people try to hide or pretend that it doesn't exist..... or, is it really just me? Are other people normal all the time? Do they crack? Do they break down? Do they mess up, blow it, tumble? Some people are solid, dependable, strong, tough, made of steel.... at least it is what we see... do they ever cry themselves to sleep at night? or bang their head on a wall? Do they look ...