Shattered Glass Life After Abuse

I don't succeed in the long-haul at anything. I am a continual failure. Can you relate? Looking In I can see how Broken I am Oh, don't we all love the sayings about how nice it is to fail because that is the only way you will ever succeed; Or it is ok to fail as long as you fail forward; Or it doesn't matter how many times you fail as long as you keep trying to succeed? Well, can it not also be true that some people do not EVER succeed? So those cute little sayings about you might as well try because if you never fail you will never have a chance to succeed, can really get old. Especially when you have not had much success in life. Do you ever feel that way? So what have I done: I graduated high school, but amazingly so did everyone in my high school class. It was just what you did; you finished; you graduated. I went to college to be a psychologist. I was going to go to school for 8 years. But, ended up getting married after 3. So, I then went to school...

I try to be uplifting and positive. I hope for a better me, a better day. I see things differently in my head before they occur than after I actually interact with the world. Should I try to hang on...............................? So much... nearly everything that I try ... crumbles, crashes, slips and breaks, explodes, cracks. What I see is positive, loving, giving, sharing, togetherness.... this is not reality.... and so I am hurt, slashed, hurt, disappointed.... really does anyone care, why do I sit here and share my over-bleeding emotions and heart... I really think sometimes I do to try to hang on.... to feel like if I will never be able to do anything, at least I can be a witness for some other soul - dark soul - hollow soul - pained soul... to know others are often barely hanging on also. Is that a reason to be? Is that a purpose to breath? It is so difficult... when you want to experience normalcy.... to be a mom, wife, friend.... nobody famous, nobody special .... j...