I try to be uplifting and positive. I hope for a better me, a better day. I see things differently in my head before they occur than after I actually interact with the world. Should I try to hang on...............................? So much... nearly everything that I try ... crumbles, crashes, slips and breaks, explodes, cracks. What I see is positive, loving, giving, sharing, togetherness.... this is not reality.... and so I am hurt, slashed, hurt, disappointed.... really does anyone care, why do I sit here and share my over-bleeding emotions and heart... I really think sometimes I do to try to hang on.... to feel like if I will never be able to do anything, at least I can be a witness for some other soul - dark soul - hollow soul - pained soul... to know others are often barely hanging on also. Is that a reason to be? Is that a purpose to breath? It is so difficult... when you want to experience normalcy.... to be a mom, wife, friend.... nobody famous, nobody special .... j...